Need you now

Can’t find you anymore, it’s like you have disappeared from the world….I miss your face, your eyes, you smile. It’s like it was yesterday that you made me so happy, like nothing else in the world mattered but now all I feel is a half empty heart waiting to be filled (with you). Every day, there’s something that reminds me about the past, I’m stuck to it, as hard as I try I can’t move on… Do you feel the same? I have no clue, you’re the one I can’t read, the one I can’t know no more how he feels, the one I won’t have, but although I know all that I still can’t move one and I still care about  you, maybe too much, whenever I  see you suffer, I just want to run to near you and ask you what happened and stay there as long as you needed me and then I wake up to reality and I realize that maybe you just don’t want to see me or talk to me.
I live in this shadow of what we used to be, waiting for the sun to hit it again and then maybe you would notice me again and realize that I’ve been there since always, I thought you knew it but apparently the “appearances” worth more than everything we’ve been through.

Sometimes I think I’m just making all up, that this is me dreaming out loud, and now I’m feeling like a philosopher thinking about the existence of the reality, but not the whole, just ours, or more correctly the one I may have made up and lived in for 4 years.

The one thing I really know, is that I exist, you exist and that we are apart, maybe for too long, probably more than we should, but anyway, I still love you.