What’s
happening? When I look back to the past looks like I forwarded years in my
left.
Not sure if
I recognize myself anymore, it feels like I’m making all the wrong decisions in
the life, like I don’t even think about stuff anymore, like I need to rush
everything, but then I crash into reality and it spooks me, the decisions I
made spook me, the future spooks me.
In one hand
I stop being depressed about past things, it’s the first time I feel this way
in long time, don’t feel like crying until sleep, because he makes me stop
thinking about what happened made me move on, but he puts me in braces with questions
that were thought to be answered but they turn out to be wrong or need to be
re-thought.
The feeling
of uncertain sort of kills me inside, conscience says “A” but I feel “B”, what
should I hear, the well thought conscience about things that I developed
through the years or the rushed feelings that may be like this because he knows
how to put things in a beautiful way?
Well, when
put like this it’s kinda easy to choose, conscience wins by far but can it be
that simple?
Aff I hate
to complicate things but looks like it’s all I’ve been doing for a while back.
The person that loves to keep it simple now likes to get it hard to decide,
please life… make sense!
January 2nd, 2014
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